That is awesoem that you are raising money for child cancer.  kudos!!!!

[bananna]

Thanks for all the information.  I try to keep records I know I need to be better.  I cant believe you have been battling for 8 years!  Well I guess mine has been 4 years.  Sucks, right?!  I will take your advise and do what I can.  it is so crazy how he can be so crazy one minute then send me a text and tell me he is proud of me. (if you read my latest entry you will see what I went through yesterday).  He is so unstable.  I know im in a battle….just need to get all of my documents lined up then go fight it.  thanks again!

 I loved your entry, so homey and refreshing. That is a compliment too! And I loved it when you signed off saying:

Toodles

 I'm adding you to my favorites.

thats the way to do itlol

have an awesome weekend

kitty

I totally agree...i really hate myspace...

Its just like you said people who brag and thrive on comments...

<33Sarah

That is sooo cute!!!  you seem soo happy and your life seems to be just perfect!!! its awesome that you and your man get to spend time away from it all still....with kids and all I know its hard to do...what a great relationship it sounds you two have!!!   im happy for you!!

Happy b-day to your daughter!!! 

Well Well Well!

Imagine that...lil Missy gets hitched and has no more time for her MDD family- Hope you are having a great time- best wishes!

Im really glad that things are starting to look up for you....

Congrats on getting hitched!!!

*Lucky*

Will you comment my last entry please? I want peoples input. Thnaks, if you do!!!

)_J)_E)_N)_N)_E)_Y)_)

Thanks for commenting on my last entry. I am looking forward to follow your advise.

vigorous sex can burn alot of calories---just a suggestion as you guys are soooo mcuh in love!!!  Besides, you're going to be newlyweds!  Send the kids away for a weekend, the week before load him up on zinc supplements, protein shakes and ruffage

have a nice day

P.S.  did anything happen with the state?

Both you and your husband are adults beyond the age of consent---you don't have to do anything you don't want to, or deal with anyone you don't want to.  You or he, owe her no obligation...Hope it works out for you!

cuze i want to make sure itz da way i want it.

Sorry to hear about the colic... my cousins baby had that, about drove her nuts!!

take care of you and that baby!

congrats to you all!!!!!  her name is beautiful.  rest, recover, and treasure your every moment.

[terriberri]

i understand all too well, the man who doesn't like to make waves.  for me personally...i couldn't deal with it.  it's all fine and dandy to always want to be the good guy, but i had trouble seeing "manliness" in that.  just me, i guess.  if you are able to work it all, that's wonderful, especially considering the expansion of your family.

you didn't mention the new baby...lol.  i've been following your journal and waiting to hear of the new arrival.  aren't you about due?

[terriberri]

Wow you rock. You make me feel all calm and ready to go and I don't even have anywhere to go to.

What number is this baby?

Here's hoping you find happiness in 2006...and Happy New Year!

When i was pregnant with my son somedays I would feel the same way. Sometimes I just wanted him to stay in there and incubate for another nine months lol. Other days I was anxious and just wanted to get it over with so i could hold him in my arms... But now its over and done and I am glad it is. It was all worth holding that little guy in my arms. By the way I am glad your feeling better. I hate being sick.

~*~ angel (mommy of Connor 3 weeks and Ravyn 3 yrs)

ps. what are u going to have a boy or girl?

I hope things settle down at your place. Good for you being almost done with your Christmas shopping. I've got no money so I won't have to worry about that this year. Take care.

[goingmyway]

Would all married women consider going out to dinner and then Christmas shipping a date? Or are you just easy to please? I find it's really hard for me to take the wife out because the way our budget is set up, I pay all the household bills and expenses except groceries, which leaves me broke. So in light of that do I wait to have the wife see if I want to go out, or do I go ahead and plan something thinking she's going to pay for it? Just wondered what your take was on it. Glad your Thanksgiving was perfect.    Take care

QT,

It is allot different to get advise from someone who has been through it and has succeeded.

Thanks, turtle

hey! well i've read your diary from the beginning and i'm glad things are all ok now and your finally going to get married! ignore the horrible comments ppl have left you in the past i think you've done a fantastic job looking after your family throughout everything you've gone through.. and you've still managed to stay sane! all the best for the birth and marriage! :)

Humbug x

Hey thanks for the comment in my entry yesterday. I commented on you comments in the next entry. Thanks

Cheers, turtle

Have a great weekend. Take care

Make your man watch a few chick flicks, that might get the romantic flame going in the guy, then you'll get the answers you want to the questions you ask. It might work I don't know, but I've ended up watching chick flicks with my wife and sometimes I think I'm more romantic than she is.       Take care

I think that if you give your boy a big hug and tell him that you weren't thinking when you said what you said, that he'll forgive you. I know you feel bad about it, and speaking from experience I also know that he'll forgive you. I hope the afternoon gets better for you.

wow! I'm already on summa vacation and we have 2 months, its half ova tho

Ex's and in-laws, both can be a pain in the butt! What are you having blood work done for? I thought I had read about all of your entries, but I'm not remembering if you said what the tests were for or not. Well whatever it is, good luck with it.   Take care

Ok, I will reply here instead of a new entry and see if this works.  I am doing a little work here, but it is a slower day... so I welcome the distraction. 

Thanks for the interest in my meager posts, and feel free to ask whatever you like :) 

Not too bad at folding clothes as long as the company is nice and easy on the eyes :)

Your man's first marriage sounds all too familiar, it's hard when you feel like you're the only one that cares about it. I'm glad you are getting counseling and at least trying to work through your issues. Good for you, Take care. 

Wow,

Everytime I come across your diary you have something ignorent to say. I like how you tried to cover calling these kids bastards by using a damn dictionary phrase! The fact is no matter what the situation, YOU DONT EVER call an innocent child a bastard. These are human beings. You are a miserable old lady who has issues. Im sorry for your own kids that they havea  mother like you!

[Jilly728]

How dare you call ANY child a bastard regaurdless of WHAT the situation. It sounds awful. It sounds like ur family is not exaclty perfect and u cant even get ur man to marry you! You have to go to court all the time.....um pathetic! It seems like your a jealous and critical person because you own life SUCKS!

Your a trashy dumb bitch. Maybe your man's mom doesnt like you cause she can tell that your nothing but trash. Thats cool your in couple's therapy....ah-hem loser.

I know exactly what you are going thru. I dont even want it very often because I work so much and am on depo. which drains the life outta me! So I dont want it very often. The other night I wanted it more than anything, I mean, I even broke out with the sexy clothes and he wasnt having it! I stayed up until 1am I was so frustrated after tryin for 2 hours. Rubbin against him and everything.

I had to comment annonymusly because you blocked me.....

funshine08

I know exactly what you are going thru. I dont even want it very often because I work so much and am on depo. which drains the life outta me! So I dont want it very often. The other night I wanted it more than anything, I mean, I even broke out with the sexy clothes and he wasnt having it! I stayed up until 1am I was so frustrated after tryin for 2 hours. Rubbin against him and everything.

I had to comment annonymusly because you blocked me.....

funshine08

Good for you, it sounds like you've got everything taken care of. You do have to be strict with kids these days, there are too many things to influence them, the t.v., video games etc. I'm very happy for you, and great job on your part.           Take care

Your kids sound very...clean. I mean, they sound just too good to be true. They're probably young right? Little kids are so much easier to keep innocent. But eventually, children yern for something a little more exciting then Shrek.

And that's when you'll really have to pay attention. You'll still be picking out their tv shows and movies, because parents fear their children changing and noticing a disgusting world, and wanting to be a part of it. Your children will get a taste for something more mature and probably crave it.

If you're lucky, they'll hate to disappoint you.

A page was deleted because people were ripping you a new a**h*** you 40 college grad, divorcee crazy women! It seems you cant take the heat cuz you just wrote a whole new entry about the same person!

You are 40 years old and writing on a site for people in the teens and 20's and arguing with people! What the hell is wrong with you?!? Grow up and go take care of your probably f***ed up children!

[OliverLL]

Oh my God. You seem like such a nasty women. How would you know if a persons eyes are closed just by reading a online diary? It seems whoever this Jennifersoccer girl is she really has affected you and made you actually spend time and write down a journal entry all about her. No offense lady, but you seem a little obsessive. The other writers are correct. You do not know anything about this girls life to critisize her. You dont live her life..maybe her boss is a jerk!

Like I said, I read some previous entry's on your diary and the page before you deleted it with everyones comments. (This was b4 I began my own diary) and frankly...it looked to me as if Jennifer had a job and had graduated from a good college. WHo are you to judge her. I agree with what everyone else wrote to you. I mean- you are almost 40 and just graduated college??? One last point, you keep obsessing and writing entry's about Jennifersoccer...ur were accusing her of being sensitive to your remarks, however, you are the one still obsessing and defending yourslef against everyone else who thinks your being ridicolous about this poor girl you keep harrassing. If I were her I would have began a new diary too. U just cant let it go!  It seems YOU ARE THE ONE BEING SENSITIVE and that JENNIFERSOCCER has affected you and not the other way around. Chill crazy lady! Ur ARE MAKING A FOOL OF YOURSELF.

I mean c'mon - a 40 year old women having online fights with people half your age????? You need to get a life. 

HAHA- she had to take her entry off of MDD!!!

haha - what can I say , thats what you get for being a bitch ...I gues s you dont like harrassment either you 40 year old college grad, divorcee, un-married whore. PATHETIC

[BeckyAmy]

Oh how interesting.....look who delelted your entry after all...ashamed of something....what a hypocrite. I guess too many people told you off.

Dont you feel dumb.

[footballman8]

Hi There

Thanks for your reply to my cry for help I am very great ful for the advise you have given I am of to do my best for my g/f and the kid as I need to book my ideas up with them both now

From Ben

hi there thank you for asying that to my b/f i juat think it is for the best if it is over between us and i will bring the kid up on my own

[lynn123browneyes]

Hi There

Thanks for your reply I understand everything you have told me but the thing is I have some other problems too like money and we live away from each other too as I live in Sheffeild and she lives near leeds and It is really hard for us at the moment

Please keep in tuch

Ben

Awh...That's a quite sad story =(

Thanks ever so much for your comment in my diary it's nice to see some other people read my diary lol...And thanks for your imput on my views...Take care sweety

xXxJamesyxXx

Sugar will do it to kids every time. I remember when. Too bad it's snowing out your way. It's looking like I'll be able to go out and start my spring cleanup of my yard. Take care

[goingmyway]

Praise the Lord for blessing your family financially!  Leave it to God to bless you all amongst the chaos of school, lawyers, and everything else!  Wow.  NE ways,  God bless you girl-- I will say a prayer for your family and for the fact that the Lord will continue to bless you all-- in more ways than you could ever imagine.

God bless!

I think it's pretty cool how you call your man "my man", does he know that? If my wife called me "my man" it would sure make me feel like I was really "her man". Anyway maybe you should tell the ex to quit living in the past and get with the program as far as the divorce agreement. Sorry don't mean to tell you what to do. I think guys are kind of stupid and we need a good woman to kind of point us in the right direction. Take care.

[goingmyway]

I'm a man and I didn't roll my eyes. I understand where you are coming from as far as a commitment. I feel like I'm sort in the same situation in that I can't get a commitment from my wife as to are we really working things out or are we just waiting for the kids to be out on their own before she says see ya sucker. The reason I say that is because she doesn't put into the budget what she said she would and she told me that she isn't giving any of her money to me. Man that was a slap in the face, but that's another story. Sorry didn't mean to vent in your diary. Take care.

[goingmyway]

Good luck getting on the reality show, and with the kids.

Take care

I've heard that these so called reality shows really arn't. To a degree they are scripted, and conflicts are created just to get people hooked on watching them. Like the rose ceramony on the Batchlor etc. takes about 11 hours to film the 10 or 15 minute clip that we see on t.v. I still say the only real reality show is Cops. Glad you and your guy are getting along and the kids are getting better.

Take care

Relationships are sometimes a bitch arn't they? And being a male I know how stupid we are. We just can't seem to get it. I know you women want to talk, but, speaking for myself, what would my wife, for example, want to talk about? Maybe you guy is in the same boat I'm in.

Take care

You may not be saying anything about marriage but it's probably still thick in the air.  Thick and